Poems-

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:09 am

The guilt I feel is the pain thats real,
And its slowly fading me away.
It makes my heart want to shatter,
Or to you does my heart even matter?
I'm afraid to let it go,
I'm afraid to let it show.
I know I shouldnt care what other people think,
But like a rock in water I will surely sink.
My heart is so heavy and my mind is so weak,
And when I try to explain it to you,
I can hardly speak.
I know you are sad and I know you feel betrayed,
But believe me when I say this,
I feel the very same way.
Like rose thats slowly dieing,
They tell me to hang on to life.
And believe me,
Im trying.
Will this terrible feeling ever cease?
I just want to get away,
I just want eternal peace.
If I were to run,
Would you chase after me?
Or would you leave me like a kitten stuck in a tree?
Can a heart still beat after its been broken,
Or do the words I say fall upon deaf ears when spoken?
Of all the things I've said and done,
There's only one thing I want you to see
The guilt I feel is the pain thats real,
And it's slowly fading me away.

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:16 am

I stare dumbly at the computer screen wondering on why she said what she said
"what the fuck?" I say out loud while I read her stupid email
Wondering on what she was going to say
I dumbly read the stupid email
After reading about her confesion I sit and stare at the computer screen blankly.

"What do I say?" I ask myself while sorta rereading it all over
"what do I say?" I asked myself again, 'What do I say to all of this?'
I didn't know where all this confessing was coming from
Did something happen to make her do this?

Why did she lie to us about her image?
Does she think that we are lower then dirt?
Why? I have so many questions but I don't know where to start

I try 2 IM her but her friend says she's on her way home
"Talk to her" I say before she loggs off. "Talk to her and ask her why?"

Waiting and waiting I waited for her to answer
I didn't know what was happening.
Was this a trick? Was she just fooling us?
And why was she going home without telling us good bye?

Why? I ask myself before realizing that I might have been the reason.
I start to think about what all we said, I tried to remember on what all she did.

Nothing pops up, Hours later she comes on tired
Nicely and calmly I talk to her about what she did

Not knowing what answer I got out of her not knowing if I could forgive her I waited
Sighing and knowing that I could not be mad at her for long,
I slowly type, "It's alright...we still can be friends."

I sighed and slammed my head on the desk.

"This girl...how stupid does she think I am?" I ask myself

(lol so bored and don't care)

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(Becca is forcing me to post this so laugh all u want cuase idc it's just somthing i wrote awhile back,I hope your happy Becca now i'm gonna go emo and cut myself^.^)

When the darkness sets in and the light fades
Where will you be?
Will you run to him?
Will you run to me?
The night passs and I dont hear the knock
The knock at th door that i waited to hear all night

Is this my fate?
Am I just the one you tell your problems when no one else will listen
Is that all I am to you?
All those times w sat up and talked was it for nothing
After all the hints and all th times i basicly told you how I feel
Was that just until the light broke through the windows again and the darkness was gone untill the next night?

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:47 am

I have some poems too. I just get emberassed when people read 'em =/ lol

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:50 am

I could care less if ppl thought that I was crazeir when they read them...most of my poems but the last three of four were written when I was younger...the other ones were written like today

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 11:40 am

When i think about you my knees go out
when I stare at you I think about us
I don't know what I would do if you weren't here
I don't know who i would hold if we weren't together
I don't know what I would do if you went away

I love you, i'll keep telling you that
until the day that I die
Anything that you want to do
I'll do it
Anything that you want me to say
I'll say it
Anything that you want
I'll get it

Because I love you

*again short and sweet*

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I love you

I hate you

I want you to know it

I want you

I need you

I can't live without you

I dispise you

You make me sick

I don't want to ever see you again

I want you to touch me

I want you to lick me

i want you in me

I miss your touch

I want your touch

don't be nice

I love you

I hate you

i just thought that I would let you know

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:45 pm

我是单独的我要您拿着我我再想念您，并且我想要您雨下来，并且我想要您我的shining星亮光我爱你我想念您我想要您我想要您在我的胳膊为我喜欢…我想念您非常喜欢，回来为我回来

ich bin ich wünsche Sie mich halten allein, wieder, das ich Sie vermisse und ich wünsche Sie, zurück der Regen unten kommt und ich wünsche Sie zurück meine glänzenden Stern Shines wünsche ich liebe dich ich vermisse Sie ich wünsche Sie zurück ich Sie in meinen Armen gefalle… gerade für mich ich Sie gefalle soviel vermisse, zurückkomme zurückgekommen für mich

私はだけ私私を握ってほしいである再度私が逃し、ほしいと思う雨が来、私は私のshining星の輝やきI愛私が私は私は私がそんなに喜ぶ逃す私のために私の腕の喜ぶ…ちょうどほしいと思わなかったり、私のためにもどって来られてほしいと思うほしいと思う逃すもどって来る

je suis seul je veux que vous me teniez encore que je m'ennuie de toi et je vous veux en arrière la pluie descend et je vous veux en arrière mon briller tiennent le premier rôle des éclats plus je t'aime je m'ennuie de toi je vous veux en arrière je vous veux dans des mes bras satisfais… juste pour moi je m'ennuie de toi satisfais tellement, reviens revenu pour moi

i am alone

I want you to hold me again

I miss you and I want you back

the rain comes down and i want you back

my shining star shines no more

I love you

i miss you

I want you back

I want you in my arms

Please...just for me

I miss you so much

Please, come back

come back for me

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 12:51 pm

私はころんで、私は誰かに私をつかまえてほしい
私の生命は行き、私は鬼を私をおろすことを感じる
死の恥の破損の破損
だれも私の助けを求める叫びを聞かないようである
声はおびえさせているの内で混乱失われ、
私はほしいと思う
誰かは私を助ける!
私はまだあなたの単語を聞く落下である
釘のharmerのように私の衝突
私は憎む
鬼の爪は傷つき、引き裂いている
私の皮
私はそしてより速くころんでいる
過去について考えること私は私を救わないことを知っている
気遣うことを考えることすべてが私私知ったものについて
血は落ち、地面に下る
私の表面を離れた恥および傷の役割の破損
私は悪魔が遠くから笑うのを聞く
私は私の端に来るすぐにべきである
なぜ私を救わないか。
私はすべてのそれらの時間、私救った救った
地獄から、私を除けば
私の鬼から私を救いなさい
側面の私の自身の悪魔から私を救いなさい
私は私に少なくともそれを負うと考える
私はこの苦痛が傷つけている愛する
自分自身からの私を除けば

I’m falling and I want somebody to catch me
My life is gone, and I feel the demons pulling me down
Tears of shame Tears of death
Nobody seems to be hearing my cries for help
Voice is lost within scared and confusion
I want you back

Please somebody help me!
I am still falling, hearing your words
Hitting me like a harmer on a nail
I hate you

The demon’s claws hurt, and they are tearing
Away my skin
I am falling quicker then ever
Thinking about the past I know that you won’t save me
Thinking about what all I did I know that you care

Blood drops down and falls to the ground
Tears of shame and hurt role off my face
I hear the devils laugh from a distance

I’m soon to come to my end
Why won’t you save me?
I saved you all those times, I saved you
From hell

Please, save me
Save me from my demons
Save me from my own Devil in side
I think that you owe me at least that

I love you this pain is hurting
Please save me from myself

Subject: Re: Poems- Wed 31 Oct 2007, 3:30 pm

Dear Dairy,
I'm writing to tell you about my day to day, Today i saw this boy. He gave me a smile, i swear that I would fall and never be aloud to come back up. When he stares at me with his crystal blue eyes i feel like that i'm in the ocean. Dear Dairy what should I do? Should i tell him that he takes my soul with him when he walks past me? Should I tell him that I love him dearly and that I wish that he was mine and mine only? Or should I leave my feelings hidden and not let anbody notice that I might be in love with him? Dear Dairy oh how I wish that you were real and could tell me what I should do. Today at lunch time he was eating lunch, and I swear that he smiled at me. I felt like that I would fall and faint. Dear Dairy i had him in my Science class, he dropped his pencil and when I went to reach for it we bumbed heads. he smiled and said that he was sorry. Oh Dairy i didn't know what to do! I think that i'm in love with him! then, i had him again at math. he is so smart, he helped me out with my math homework that I didn't get, he smiled and gave me his cyrstal blue eyes i felt like that I would die right there. Tomorrow i'm going to ask him out!

Next day-
Dear Dairy, today the boy at school that I have been talking about...I asked him out... and he gave me that great wonderful smile that he has. Then when I thought that he was mine...he shot me down. Oh Dear Dairy...how I wish that you would have told me that I was wrong and that I shouldn't have talked to him. Dear Dairy my heart hurts dearly....I don't think that I can fall in love again.

Next month-

Dear Dairy-
Today i ment this boy at school....

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LOVE

by: PJ Hershal

You took me out

And through me down.

You lied and cheated

But still stayed seated.

How ohh how can you do this

Your 1 fan. This hurts so much

I lay here now with blood on the floor

And stare at the wall filled with hate and bored

You took me out

You through me down

You lied and cheated

You still remain seated.

I hope you die there.

So my wish will come true.

Because im filled with hate,

You can see it in my bored stare.

Subject: Re: Poems- Thu 01 Nov 2007, 11:49 am

my life seems to feel
like that it's going to end
if my life ends I wish
for nothing but the happiness
for you and him

sadness might consume me
and haterd might be seen
but deep inside I know
that i will always be the one to be blamed
People say that I might
seem depressed and bullied

they are wrong
Becausei am me
i will laugh and make it as a joke
but sooner or later it's going to bite
me in the ass

So while I think about what I did
and how my life feels like it's going to end
i smile and remember alll th good times we had
from begining to end

Subject: Re: Poems- Thu 01 Nov 2007, 11:50 am

I had written this long ass letter
it had explained about why i had said that it was over
Feeling bad and stupid
I crumbled it all up
Laughing at myself because of what i did
I am now back at point A
from telling you what I did

(lol i'm bored)

Subject: Re: Poems- Thu 01 Nov 2007, 11:53 am

Consumed by fear
and suicide and pain
nothing seems more then vain
the whispers I hear
are growing loud by the year
Closing my eyes from seeing my demons
I hug myself in the corner of my dark room
Scared to death
and oh how i wish that I was deaf
i sigh and try to remember
all the good times I had
Counting backwards
3...2...1..
Quickly opening my eyes
I see that realy my demons were inside
inside of me

(lol i kno that it doesn't make sense but who's caring?)

Subject: Re: Poems- Thu 01 Nov 2007, 12:09 pm

I don't love you

I don't love you anymore
I want to tell you that But I couldn't
I wrote you an email telling you it so
But I couldn't get myself to push send
i wrote you a long letter but I couldn't get myself
to walk to the post office
I tried to Im you but I couldn't get myself to push enter

I don't love you anymore
I know that i'll cry and wait until the last minute
I hate it when you talk about getting sex with another girl
I hate it when you think that I don't care
I hate it when you think that i'm not hurt
I hate you

our love was nothing, our love was fake
It was not real...this feeling that I feel
It is not real
Even if it was real It would never be true
I hate you

But why is it that when I write it, it hurts?
Why is it when I write I hate you
All I want to say is I love you?
Why?
Your feelings aren't real
if your's isn't real and mine is
where do I put my love for you?

I can't stand it anymore, i'm just going to say
it one more time
I hate you

Subject: Re: Poems- Thu 01 Nov 2007, 10:04 pm

Sticks and stones are hard on bones,
Aimed with angry art.
Words can sting like anything,
But silence breaks the heart...

Subject: Re: Poems- Fri 02 Nov 2007, 4:36 pm

this is for you and you know who i am talking about-

I love you so firkin badly that it hurts When I think about you I get mad I hate you that's what i'm thinking I love you Is what my hand writes I stare out my window and see the rain I sigh and look around Flying alone hurts because I know that there is nobody waiting for me on the other side holding my head in my hands Tears falling down I know I know that you're going to go and have sex and never think about me When you're sitting alone i know that you don't think of me. as i think of you. I want to write you a long letter just to say on how much I hate you and that it hurts when I think about you.

Being told that I would never see you hurts worse. Being told that you think about me hurts even more. I know that you don't so stop telling me lies. I wrote a poem about how much I hate you. I posted it and I don't know if you read it. I know that when I land that there isn't going to be any coming back. I know that I won't come to where you live. Sighing and whiping away the tears i know that I will miss you. You won't i'll just be another person that you won't be able to waist time with. Knowing and hoping that my feelings are wrong. Sighing and knowing that i am wrong. Wrong about thinking that we could ever be.

I try not to let my feeling be shown but they sneek out. while tears keep going down my face I know that i'm just like every other girl in the world. Knowing and hoping. realilty and fanatsy. Crying and hating. All the same for every other teenaged girl. We played a hundred questions and yet I feel like that I don't know you. Looking down at my hands I know that i'm no different. I'm not even different from what you might be feeling.

If I am right I know that you are using me. If i am right we were never ment to be. If I am right I know that you were lieing. If I was right, I wouldn't be crying. I move my hair out of my face so that I can see where my tears fall. I think to myself. 'If I am right he is sitting at home wondering on who to talk to.' I then look around again. 'If I am right, I know that he is not thinking of me.'

taking a deep breath and holding it in. Counting back wards 10...9...8...7..6...5...4..3..2...1...0
i then let the long holded breath out. Whiping away the tears once one before realizing that I never told you that I didn't love you. And that I had wished that I had. Cussing under my breath knowing that it's to late, I had already said that I loved you.
Slapping my forehead knowing that I was stupid I notice that I never got to say good bye. I silently say good bye and that I did at once upon a time that I did love you. But every story has to end.
Either with love, a bad ending or the world ending. The story has to end. While I turn back to the window and stare out at the sky. Knowing that the storm isn't going to hold up I sigh and whisper.

"I love you." one more time before closing my eyes.

Because when I land my love story is going to end.

-get the picture now?-
this is also my last good bye

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Hearing those words of hate
Hearing those words of distrust
I know that you mean them

Because you are cold as snow
Your heart is filled with Ice
I don't know how you sleep at night
Because you are cold as snow

I sit on my bed wondering about what you said
You laughed and yelled in my face
On how stupid that I looked
I can only think that you are hurt
I can only think that you need help
I can only think that you love me

Because you are cold as snow
And Your heart is filled with Ice
I don't know how you sleep at night
Because you are cold as snow

I wonder before I go to sleep at night
If when it snows
That you, yourself turn to ice
I wonder--- if you turn to Ice

It's snowing, you must be hurt
It's snowing, will you turn to ice?
It's snowing are you hurt?
I only wonder because

Because you are cold as snow
And Your heart is filled with Ice
I don't know how you sleep at night
Because you need help
and you act like that you are cold as snow
Poems- - Page 2 AniSnow

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shhh it's a secret
shhh don't tell anybody

leaning in and wanting you closely
Smiling and knowing
I push forwards
and closing my eyes
I slip my hand on your lap
while you lean in and I lean in
I smile and kiss your lips

pulling away without a second thought
I smiled and stared at your cyrstal blue eyes

I love you

I say with a smile

Shh it's a secret

I smile and stand up.
Knowing and wanting you
more then ever

(meh it doesn't mean anything)

Subject: Re: Poems- Tue 20 Nov 2007, 1:29 pm

I see the darkness
I see the light
I know that image
From my sight
I know that Hearing

I turn to the darkness and i know that sound
Trembling from pain and worship...
I know better then anybody that the noise is not mine
Staring and being scared i don't know what has happened.

I said that i would come back
I said that i love you
I said that we'd be together forever...
Then why has the devil come to get me?
What did i do wrong?
Who did i make hate me so much?

With tears going down my face I do not know
What should I do?
I raise my sword up high
Wondering if it was all a lie
my denstiny?
my life?
Your love?

Was it all true?
Screaming and running towards i do not know what i can do.
Knowing and wondering...
About Death due me part.
I swing forwards with all my might
Your image comes in my sight.

Before i rot in hell...
I think that you should know
that i don't care if my love was right or wrong
But at this moment, this love that i feel

I want you to know that i will keep my promise.
I will come back.
Even from the deeps of hell.